The 3 month blues

I know I just finished saying how great this city is when it's sunny, but even a little summer can't beat the 3 month blues. We've been away from home now for just over 3 months, all three of those being cold, dark and snowy. Don't get me wrong, the weather itself has been a novelty and we've enjoyed it much more than the locals. It also provided us with an experience so different to home that it emphasised the excitement of our trip. I think now that the weather is milder, we're in an apartment and faced with the daily grind the homesickness really starts to set in. No longer are we on an adventure in a foreign winter wonderland but we've merely transported our existing lives to a city far away from everything and everyone we love. We're not travelers any more, we're living and working, paying bills and going grocery shopping. Don't get me wrong - we are definitely grateful for the opportunity and the experience. But I thought it was important to record this feeling now so that in a few months we can look back and see how far we've come (hopefully!).

On Friday I had an orientation session for my new job at Landmark Theatre's Sunshine Cinema. My early excitement quickly gave way to a sense of dread as I realised (and how could I have forgotten) the nature of the job and how boring it promised to be. The session was like many I have been a part of, albeit from the other side, and I kept comparing everything to the IMAX experience. The jarring reality that I had slipped down the food chain was depressing to say the least. Pile that on top of the nerves about being a newbie, the uncertainty of my surroundings and an hour long commute home at midnight and I was a wreck. I headed back there yesterday for my second day on the job which was marginally better, although I found it very difficult to adapt to my station. I struggled to keep my 'managing' mind in check and hoped that I didn't come off as bossy to my fellow trainees. And all this for $7.85 an hour. I've decided to continue my search for a job that will be stimulating and challenging. This trip to NYC was not intended to be a mirror of my life back home and definitely not a mirror of my life 2 years ago. So I'll keep this job while I can and look for internships, volunteer gigs and anything to get involved in the industry I love.

Lauren and Lucy will be here in less than a month. !!!!!!!!!